Thinking Out Loud…
That’s one of my favorite Gary Larson cartoons. The old Far Side calendar copy is long gone, but photo copied so I can keep it pinned to my design wall–an old friend, it seems just the right thing. As I encounter rethinking the way I work and re-establishing a work routine, believe me, this feels very familiar.
But this morning I feel ready, a shift in my thinking. I’ve spent the past week finishing up a major knitting project (yea!), and I can feel the urgency to knit (and finish) relax its hold on me. So I’m clearing a space on my sewing table and looking fresh at my design wall.
There are layers of stuff on my design wall…at this count, three layers. Projects roughed in and left, covered over with fleece, and new ideas fleshed out on top. There are actually some good ideas in there, underneath, somewhere.
One that keeps nagging me is the sweater on the yellow plaid field. Something about this one makes me feel really good, makes me smile–until I think about how to actually DO it. I’ve got lots of ideas about it, but up to now, not quite the energy to dive in and try it. I think I am there. At last.
While often over the past few years I berated myself for not “working”, I realize now that I was simply not finishing anything. I’d see my design wall everyday, look past the work up there, somehow going blind to it, and end up feeling overwhelmed and discouraged. But occasionally, I’d fling something else up there–very rough, very incomplete, but an idea that compelled me in some way. Then I’d think about making it and go lie down.
I have to chuckle at myself…about a week ago, after my last post, I walked into the studio, sat in my comfy chair, looked at the design wall, and I SAW my work. I saw that I had been producing, not finishing, but producing viable ideas. Maybe I didn’t want to finish them in the ways I have worked in the past, but that seemed OK with me. It seemed interesting to me. I felt the energy to find a way. Well dang….it feels good.
So I’ve cleared the decks and thought out a new work routine. I’m going to take it easy on myself and start out gently, slowly–a couple hours in the morning, doing some trial and error projects to grease the wheels, and to figure out some things. I am going to allow myself to venture into uncharted territory, explore materials and ideas I am curious about. And I am building in time to screw up. At last, that sounds like good fun.
Also, I’m going to add a few minutes of exercise bike time to my work routine–and do some research/reading while I pedal–easy going. My current pedaling fav is this book…fascinating text accompanying beautiful images.
It’s time to cut myself loose from expectations–mine. It is time to experiment!
I could not resist adding this–my NEW sweater! A hand knitting experiment in “will this fit?” YES!